Mournful
For some reason this morning I’ve thought a lot about the baby we lost to miscarriage before Harrison. Harrison is so very very precious to us – I have just been wondering what that first baby would have been like. Amy and Harrison are off to the library for a “lap-sit” thingy (whatever that is), and so I ended up by myself with these thoughts and just bawled. (I can admit that, can’t I?) I thought I had put it all behind me, but something like this is probably never fully “dealt with,” huh?
Anyway, the baby would be about a year old by now if it had survived. Was it a son or daughter? What would it’s personality have been like? I have been trying to imagine life that way, but it is too much.
I wonder if some day we’ll meet that child in heaven. If so, will it be a child or adult? What would I say? What a wild meeting that would be. I hope it happens.
Filed under: Uncategorized on February 26th, 2007
We can relate! So sorry!
Hey brother! I love and I am sorry for the pain your going through… I know what you mean. I wish I was there just to hang out and be able to talk with you, but I’ll be pray’n for ya! Love ya lots Troy
The other thoughts going through my head yesterday was all of the people that came out of the woodwork to say they too had lost children to miscarriage. So many children! So many! And no one talks about it. It’s sad. It’s wrong. It just plain…sucks. Bad.
I have hope, though, there will be so many of those sweet reunions some day!
We can relate too. And it does hurt. How can you love someone so much that you never met? Everytime I think about it…I also think about how if that baby survived, Lucy would never have been born. That makes me really sad too. Sometimes I’m thankful that my little one is in God’s arms and doesn’t have to live in this crappy world. You’re right…it’s something you never get over.